In a Nutshell: A darkly tragic story based on true events in Taiwan. TRIGGERS GALORE! Not for everyone, but if you can handle details of graphic sexual abuse and a slightly meandering writing style, do give this compelling story a try. This is the first time ever I have hated and loved a book at the same time.

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Plot Preview:
Liu Yi-Ting and Fang Si-Chi are thirteen-year-old best friends, coming from well-to-do families, living in the same apartment complex, studying in the same school, and fond of the Russian classics. The first difference is that Yi-Ting is somewhat plain while Si-Chi is stunning. The second difference comes out only some years later, when Yi-Ting learns that Si-Chi has gone through something earth-shattering in the last five years, a fact that is revealed by Si-Chi’s journals only after she loses her mental stability. What happened to her in the interim?
The story comes to us in the third person perspective of various characters.


I am not comfortable reading books about sexual abuse, especially when children are involved. But when I saw the blurb calling this “the most influential book of Taiwan’s #MeToo movement”, I knew I would give it a go. It has not been comfortable reading at all! I have had to force myself to pick this book up after keeping it aside readily when the going became tough. The only external force that ensured my completion was the fact that this book is based on a true story, and I wanted to extend my solidarity to the writer, though she’ll never know about this.

Author Lin Yi-Han died by suicide a few months after the publication of her first and only novel. Only after her death came the news that she had based this book on her own experiences of sexual assault by a cram school teacher many decades her senior. Yi-Han was only 26 when she died, and had been suffering from depression since many years. Perhaps she had penned this novel as some kind of cathartic endeavour, but it wasn’t enough. Such a tragic end to a young life!

Initially, I thought that this book would be a Taiwanese version of the famous Korean feminist work, 'Kim Ji-Young, Born 1982', but it turned out to be much, much darker. The only commonality between the two books is that they were huge hits in their home countries and led to major discussions about gender discrimination and abuse. But compared to the ghastliness of this book, Kim Ji-Young feels a YA work.

Goodreads suggests ratings based on our enjoyment of a book, with 1 star indicating “I did not it” and 5 stars for “It was amazing!” In that sense, this book deserves 1 star because I did not ** this book at all. A majority of the characters and the situations are frustrating. The sexual abuse scenes are terribly graphic. In fact, these sequences make us feel we are right there witnessing the assault, probably even living it, because the words ring so authentic! There’s no smoothening of feelings or brushing aside of violations. Every single part of the abuse is detailed out without censorship. This obviously means that the book is not for the fainthearted. I jumped over the more graphic scenes after a while because I couldn’t handle the content. It has taken all within me to push myself to the finish line.

At the same time, the book also earns the full rating. The intricate characterisation, the stark honesty in the writing, the metaphorical approach to the mundane, and the painful plot - all promise a literary experience beyond measure. An interesting feature of the novel lies in its choice of characters. Un usual stories of abuse, the victims (yes, plural) in this book aren’t from poor families or from relatively ignorant or illiterate backgrounds. Rather, Si-Chi belongs to a wealthy family, and lives a privileged life with quality education. Her fascination for classical literature is painfully misused by the perpetrator, who twists words to suit his own narrative.

What makes this book tougher to handle is the complex exploration of the young girl's feelings after she is raped and abused by a trusted adult. The clue to her coping mechanism lies in that strangely happy title: “first love paradise.” She turns the unpalatable truth into a version she can tolerate. One feels helpless seeing her handle the abuse this way. Anyone who picks this up merely by title or cover is bound to have a shock as the plot isn’t a “paradise” at all, with themes such as gaslighting, gender discrimination, rape, child abuse, sexual violence, trauma, mental health issues, grooming, victim shaming, miscarriage, and domestic abuse.

Some chapters are written from the assailant’s point of view, and needless to say, these are the most infuriating as his disgusting thinking reveals itself without guilt. Then again, it wouldn’t be right to say that this man is the main villain of the story. The crime belongs almost as much to those who knew of such shenanigans and chose either to turn a blind eye or to slut-shame the victim.

The content itself isn’t a smooth ride, but there are a few further hurdles my way. There were too many characters at the start, and it took some time to get acquainted with them, though the going got easier once the character identities were settled. Moreover, the language was a bit awkward at times. This book was originally written in Mandarin in 2017, so I am not sure if the odd metaphors were straight from the original writing or a translation issue. But the back-and-forth jump across timelines and the slight stream-of-consciousness style added to the complicatedness of the reading.

This is my first Taiwanese novel, and it has been an odd experience combining enlightenment with exasperation. Despite the somewhat dissatisfactory and highly uncomfortable reading experience, there’s no way I will not recommend the book. It is not easy to read, but it still tells a story that must be heard. Not all victim stories go the same way, and this book spotlights this hidden bitter truth.

Recommended to lit fic fans and readers of gut-wrenching true-life narratives who can tolerate graphic paedophilic scenes. If you want a story that has hope in any measure, stay away from this work. This is disturbing almost all the way.

3.75 stars.

My thanks to HarperVia and NetGalley for the DRC of “Fang Si-Chi's First Love Paradise”. This review is voluntary and contains my honest opinion about the book.

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Con ng??i ch? ???c s?ng m?t l?n duy nh?t, nh?ng c?ng có th? s? ph?i ch?t nhi?u l?n.

Có th? tóm t?t d? dàng v? n?i dung c?a ???????? nh? sau: Cô gái tr? Phòng T? K?, xinh ??p và yêu thích v?n ch??ng, ?ã b? gia s? d?y v?n ?? tu?i 50 s?ng cùng tòa nhà c?a nàng, Lý Qu?c Hoa, l?m d?ng tình d?c t? khi nàng 13 tu?i, cho ??n khi T? K? d?n tr? nên phát ?iên.
Nh?ng trong m?t bài ph?ng v?n, mình thích cách tác gi? Lin Yi-Han ?ã tóm t?t l?i n?i dung cu?n sách c?a cô ?y nh? sau: M?t cô gái tr? ?ã yêu k? l?m d?ng mình. ? ?ây tác gi? dùng t? "yêu" nh?ng th?c ch?t nó ch?ng h? là yêu, c?ng nh? nhân v?t ?ã s?ng nh?ng ch?ng còn là "s?ng" n?a.

Mình yêu thích cách tác gi? m? ??u câu chuy?n, ?ó là "Thiên ???ng" nh?ng ngày còn ??p, còn ngây th? nh?t ??i v?i nh?ng cô gái tr?. ?ó là nh?ng ngày T? K? và b?n tâm giao c?a cô, L?u Di ?ình, ??n và xoa d?u nh?ng ngày ??a ng?c c?a ng??i ch? s?ng cùng tòa nhà, Y V?n. Cho ??n khi "Thiên ???ng ?ã m?t" ?ó là t?t c? nh?ng s? ki?n t?i t? nh?t x?y ra. Mình ti?c nu?i cho cu?c ??i c?a cô gái tr? Phòng T? K? ?ã d?n b? h?y ho?i, T? K? ?ã ?? b?n thân "yêu" gã th?y giáo Lý Qu?c Hoa b?i T? K? bi?t rõ nàng ch?ng còn có th? tr? l?i trong tr?ng nh? x?a n?a, có th? nàng c?ng hi?u cách xã h?i s? ??i x? v?i chính nh?ng ng??i b? g?i là "n?n nhân". T?t c? nh?ng s? m?n m?, yêu quý mà T? K? dành cho Lý Qu?c Hoa vì gã am hi?u v?n ch??ng và th? ca, c?ng vì nó mà T? K? b? v?y b?n và b? nó gi?t ch?t d?n, nàng ch?n mù quáng tin vào th? tình yêu trong v?n ch??ng ?ó ?? nàng tin b?n thân còn thu?n khi?t, thà nàng còn th? ngây ?? không nhìn th?y m?t trái c?a t?t c?, nh?ng T? K? ?âu bi?t tâm trí nàng d?n b? bào mòn, nàng b? ph?n b?i và m?t ?i lý trí trong th? "tình yêu" ?ó.

Tác gi? ?ã khi?n mình v?a kh?m ph?c v?a ghê s? Lý Qu?c Hoa, mình hi?u gã th?y giáo Lý là k? l?m d?ng ?áng ghê t?m nh?ng mình không th? ph? nh?n r?ng gã thông minh và t?ng câu nói, suy ngh? c?a gã ch?a ??y v?n th? m?t cách m? mi?u khi?n mình ph?i ghê s?, tác gi? xen k? m?t màu ?en ghê t?m cùng v?i m?t màu tr?ng ??p ?? trong câu v?n dung hòa thành m?t th? màu xám ??y ph?c t?p.

?è mi?t nàng lên trên nh?ng tác ph?m ?ã ?o?t gi?i Nobel, ?è ??n Nobel c?ng ch?n ??ng t?ng h?i. Nói v?i nàng r?ng nàng chính là ánh sáng gi?a nh?ng tháng n?m trung niên m?t mùng c?a gã, bóp v?n nàng trong muôn l?i d? ng?t, ch?i v?i gi?a bi?n câu ch? mà nh?ng nam sinh trung h?c ch?a th? nào bi?t t?i, dùng ngôn t? mà huy?n ho?c r?ng nàng ?ã tr??ng thành, và ?? cho linh h?n c?a nàng l?a d?i chính c? th? mình.
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Các h?c sinh trong tr??ng luy?n thi ??u ít nh?t m??i sáu tu?i, và b?n chúng ??u ?ã nh?y kh?i ??o Lolita. Phòng T? K? m?i m??i hai m??i ba tu?i, còn c??i trên thân cây trên ??o, b? nh?ng c?n sóng bi?n li?m láp. [...] Giá sách c?a Phòng T? K? là nh?ng cu?n sách mà nàng mu?n nh?y kh?i ??o Lolita nh?ng l?i b? sóng bi?n ??a tr? l?i v?i bãi bi?n.

?i?u gì còn ?áng s? ? gã ?àn ông này? Lý Qu?c Hoa dùng nh?ng n?m kinh nghi?m gi?ng d?y, s? uy quy?n và "l?i nói" ?? d? d? các n? sinh, trong t?ng câu nói gã ?ã l?t tr?n, bóp méo s? th?t, t?y não khi?n các cô gái tin r?ng ?ó là l?i c?a h?, gã ??c khoét tâm h?n và nh?i nét cái th? tình yêu sai trái và ghê t?m vào trong h?. Gã th?y Lý còn có m?t l?i suy ngh? ích k?, méo mó không h? h?i h?n v?i nh?ng gì ?ã làm. Th?y Lý còn ?? thông minh hi?u r?ng xã h?i ??ng v? phía h?n, m?t xã h?i ?? l?i cho n?n nhân.

Gã c?m th?y xã h?i c?m k? tình d?c quá ti?n l?i, c??ng hi?p m?t cô gái, c? th? gi?i cho r?ng ?ó là l?i c?a chính nàng, ngay c? b?n thân nàng c?ng c?m th?y ?ó là l?i c?a mình. C?m giác t?i l?i s? ??a nàng tr? l?i bên gã m?t l?n n?a.

Bên c?nh ?ó ngoài vi?c miêu t? tâm lý c?a n?n nhân và k? l?m d?ng, ???????? ?ã th? hi?n m?i m?t trái c?a xã h?i này, thay vì giúp ?? và ng?n ch?n thì xã h?i này l?i t?o ra nhi?u n?n nhân n?a; m?t xã h?i mà ngay c? nh?ng ng??i ph? n? c?ng làm ng?, hãm h?i nhau. ?ó là bà Tr??ng, ng??i ?àn bà ?ã gián ti?p khi?n m?t cô gái tr? tr? thành n?n nhân c?a b?o l?c gia ?ình; ?ó còn là m?t n?n giáo d?c ?en t?i và ghê t?m, nh?ng giáo viên khác c?ng l?m d?ng h?c sinh, khoe m? nh?ng chi?n tích c?a chúng, ?áng s? h?n là m?t giáo viên n? ?ã giúp Lý Qu?c Hoa d? d? m?t n? sinh. ?ó là m?t xã h?i ?? l?i cho n?n nhân, khi m?t n? sinh lên ti?ng vì b? Lý Qu?c Hoa l?m d?ng, nh?ng gì cô ?y nh?n ???c là ch?i b?i, chê c??i. Xã h?i áp ??t ph? n? ch?p nh?n r?ng nh?ng ?i?u t?i t? x?y ??n v?i h? là ???ng nhiên, ép bu?c ph? n? là ph?i trong tr?ng và không ???c phép có d?c v?ng, còn ??i v?i ph? n? xinh ??p càng ph?i bi?t gi? mình.

Còn là s? vô tâm, th? ? tr??c nh?ng l?i c?u c?u. M?t n? sinh sau khi nói v?i b?n trai r?ng cô ?ã b? l?m d?ng, thì anh ta l?i ghê t?m và ch?n chia tay ngay - ?? r?i cô n? sinh c?m th?y cô ??n và ghê t?m chính mình, r?i cô ?y l?i ch?n lao vào vòng tay c?a k? ?ã l?m d?ng mình v?i mong mu?n ???c yêu và an ?i. C?ng chính quan ni?m c? k? c?a cha m? T? K? ?ã d?n dìm ch?t nàng.

M? Phòng ng?c nhiên nhìn nàng, ?áp: “Giáo d?c gi?i tính cái gì? Giáo d?c gi?i tính là dành cho nh?ng k? có nhu c?u tình d?c. Th? giáo d?c ?ó ch?ng ph?i chính là nh? v?y sao?”

???????? là m?t cu?n sách ??y ?en t?i v?i v? b?c màu h?ng, có th? khi?n b?n ?au lòng, gi?n d?, th??ng xót. Di?n bi?n truy?n r?i r?c và th?m chí ?ôi lúc nó còn khi?n mình chán n?n vì s? ph?c t?p c?a nó. Nh?ng mình ph?i ??c 2 l?n m?i hi?u rõ ???c nh?ng ?n d? trong cách vi?t, tu t? c?a tác gi?, nh?ng ??i l?p trong nh?ng câu tho?i xu?t phát t? các nhân v?t trong sách. Có nh?ng phân ?o?n tình c?m mình không quá quan tâm, nh?ng m?t ph?n chính Lin Yi-Han ?ã cho mình th?y chút hy v?ng, r?ng ít nh?t có ai ?ó ???c c?u v?t.

???????? còn ???c xem nh? m?t bán t? truy?n c?a Lin Yi-Han, tìm hi?u v? cu?c ??i c?a Lin Yi-Han mình m?i bi?t ???c, bi?t bao ch?u ??ng và cay ??ng ?? có th? ??c gi? th?y m?t t?i c?a xã h?i và th? gi?i mà không c?n ch?m vào nó. Nh? chính nhân v?t T? K? và c? chính tác gi?, h? ??c là ?? c?m nh?n c?m xúc c?a ng??i vi?t, vi?t ?? nói ra c?m xúc trong lòng, ??i v?i Lin Yi-Han vi?t ra cu?n sách này là khó kh?n, ?au kh?.

Nh? "Tr? v? v?i thiên ???ng" m?i th? v?n còn ?ó, m?i t?i ác v?n còn và có th? s? còn có thêm nh?ng "Phòng T? K?" khác, dù ?ây ch? là m?t cu?n sách nh?ng cu?c s?ng c?a chúng ta là th?t ta có th? tìm cách giúp ?? và thay ??i xã h?i này, m?t xã h?i b? che m? b?i v? ngoài, h?c th?c và quy?n l?c.

"Em có th? vi?t m?t cu?n sách ??y s? gi?n d?, th? ngh? xem, m?i ng??i ??c sách c?a em c?m th?y may m?n bi?t bao, h? có th? nhìn th?y m?t trái c?a th? gi?i mà không c?n ch?m vào nó." asian-books sad38 s ???????203 78

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Raj wyst?puje te? w interesuj?cym kontek?cie - jest jedn? z najwa?niejszych powie?ci nurtu MeToo w Tajwanie, odbiera si? go jako cz??ciowo autobiograficzny zapis traumy debiutuj?cej autorki, która odebra?a sobie ?ycie nied?ugo po publikacji tekstu. Tekst w polskim wydaniu uzupe?nia ostatni wywiad-monolog z autork?, dotycz?cy tego, co Lin Yihan chcia?a przekaza? - i jej zdaniem, je?li streszcza? fabu?? i sens ksi??ki do jednego zdania, to nie jest to ksi??ka o wykorzystanej nastolatce, tylko historia dziewczyny, która zakochuje si? w swoim oprawcy. Dodaje: "Nie chc? jednak dzi? mówi? o molestowaniu i gwa?cie, je?li czytelnik podczas lektury nie dostrze?e ich, to znaczy, ?e udaje ?lepego i g?uchego".

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We live in a society where "the Talk" is quite different from "the Talk" in Western books or movies. How do you translate "the Talk"?

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To imagine a language is to imagine a form of life.
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Finished this book months ago, but I haven't made peace to myself with the book.

It was a turbulence on the internet due to the author's suicide as well as her parents' claim that it is an autobiographic book. It's heart breaking to read it, especially knowing she committed suicide at 26 after the publishing of the book. I could imagine how hurtful to the parents knowing the truth, but where were they during the whole thing? A 13 years old girl got seduced and raped by her teacher / neighbour that her parents trusted to? Parents have not noticed a single sign for the disaster?

Throughout the book, I grow up with Fang Sichi. It's sad, there is no help, no outer voice to her, instead, only the twisted Lolita complex growing inside of her. I could understood her choice of killing herself. And no doubt, it is a wonderful book!

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To naprawd? bole?nie smutna ksi??ka. O oprawcy, którym nie tylko jest pojedynczy cz?owiek, ale ca?y system i spo?ecze?stwo. O ofiarach, które w oczach innych wcale nimi nie s?, bo „równie?” ponosz? win? w zaistnia?ej sytuacji. O utraconej m?odo?ci i mi?o?ci. O zatraceniu. O czystej manipulacji. O stracie. O bezsilno?ci.
Ona krzyczy. Bezg?o?nie.
Napisana ci??ko, pe?na odniesie? do innych utworów literackich. Jest niewygodna, dusi czytelnika, a jednak co? w niej sprawia, ?e chcemy pozna? ca?o??.

Bardzo poruszy? mnie równie? ko?cowy „wywiad-monolog” autorki. Warto zwróci? na niego uwag?. Z pewno?ci? t? cz??? przeczytam jeszcze raz by lepiej odnale?? si? w my?lach przelanych przez autork?. in-my-home-library7 s Ania10

Trudno jest ocenia? ksi??k?, która z za?o?enia jest krzykiem cierpienia. Ci??ki do czytania, poszatkowany strumie? ?wiadomo?ci, mnóstwo nierówno?ci i niedoskona?o?ci w stylu idealnie pasuj? do opisanej historii — tragicznej, historii która wyje z bólu. Bo jak inaczej? W ko?cu zagl?damy do g?owy p**ofila i jego ofiary. Po zapoznaniu si? z tre?ci? ksi??ki posty na Instagramie promuj?ce j? na tle kwiatków i innych ?adnych, Instagramowych kompozycji wygl?daj? jak jedno wielkie nieporozumienie.7 s jasmine299 93

After finishing the book, I went online and watch the author's interview, police investigation of her suicide and her wedding speech, it truly broke me.

Lin Yi-han's background story : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wUKOz...
Lin Yi-han's wedding speech : https://www.bilibili.com/s/video/BV15...

Fang Si-Chi's First Love Paradise is inspired by the author's true story where she undergoes several mental breakdown and start taking medication after having an affair with her teacher during high school. Sadly, there aren't enough evidence to put the culprit to jail.

This book narrates the life of a young girl, Fang Si-chi that got raped and sexually abuse a cram-school teacher, Liu Guo-hua which lives in her neighbourhood. Throughout the years, she continue to meet up with him. Even though she realized that she got abused and treated as a sex toy, she couldn't step out of her guilt and live a new life.

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Throughout the book, the author touches on many important social problems, particularly in Taiwan and Asia countries. Firstly, the taboo of sex and sex education. When Fang Si-Chi and her best friend, Liu Yi-ting asked questions about sex or make jokes about sex, adults either quickly switch the topic or reprimand them. As a Malaysian, I truly felt the stress and restricted space to discuss about such heavy topics with family and friends.

It also depicts that all of us are the culprits of social problems. The book depicts that the society often quickly blame female victims of sexual assault and rape without understanding the context. A newly-wed lady, Xu Yi-wen got abused by her husband whenever he is drunk. Even though the whole neighborhood know about it, they choose to remain silent, because it's other people's business. Therefore, social problems that keep on happening from the past till now is because all of us enjoy being a bystander.

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The author also questioned the power of words and literature. The teacher, Liu Guo-hua often uses poetic words to seduce and prey on young girls. The book also mentioned that he enjoy practicing quotes that he learn from reading various literature on different young girls. In an interview, the author, Lin Yi-han mentioned that the news of V.S Naipul sexually abused his wife shocked her. As a reader, we often believe that writing comes from the soul of a person and depicts the true nature. However, literature also had the power to misled us into false perception. Fang Si-chi falls in love with the words of Liu Guo-hua over and over again, even though she knows that all of it were lies. Therefore, Lin Yi-han wanted to write a book to discuss about the danger of words and literature.

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Overall, this book is a masterpiece. I gave it a 4 stars because I couldn't grasp the hidden meaning of every words and sentences due to my poor Mandarin. There are many lyrical sentences and symbolic that flew through my head. I also found the character of Liu Yi-ting retarded and dumb. A high school student got jealous because her favourite teacher sexually abuse her friend? If it's a primary school kid, I still can understand it, but a high school student that is going to graduate?

Still recommend it. May Lin Yi-han rest in peace and Fang Si-Chi's First Love Paradise continue to spread its important messages to the world.

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Read in mandarin first and then English (gifted by HarperVia Books)

First off, definitely check TW! Especially since this book is based on the author’s own experience, it might be helpful to first read about Yi-Han’s life—a literary star that was gone too soon. May she rest in power.

The Mandarin has more complex language that takes a bit getting used to. Sometimes the sentences read a bit confusing. Whereas the English translation is more straightforward, and I personally prefer my experience reading in English, even though that means the ancient Chinese texts lose its flavor.

The themes of “misinterpreting” literature as a means to grooming is very unique and fascinating. The author brilliantly delineates how “useless/dangerous” literature is when all it does is give power to perpetrators to justify their actions rather than protect girls & women.

Another thing to note is that the “epilogue” is a bit confusing… in the Mandarin version it’s more clear that’s the author’s notes given it occurs after afterwards/ of the book. In the English version, it can seem it’s an extra chapter of the novel—which I don’t think it is. But it’ll be interesting to see how English readers interpret the epilogue.

Finally, in the mandarin version, there’s an afterward titled ???????????????????????(roughly translates to: any sexual violence is perpetrated by the entire society). It really helped me interpret the novel on my second read. An absolutely heartbreaking yet essential read
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